Now, don't get me wrong. I am content in my singleness and I do NOT allow it to keep me from doing anything that I want or the Lord calls me to.
I want to trust the Lord with this...but it is quite possibly the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
I want to believe and have faith that the Lord knows and has my best interest in mind.
And I do believe and I do have faith...but putting that into practice is a whole different story.
I have read books and had many talks about "living the full single life". And it's good stuff, and I have put a lot of it into practice in my life.
The reality is this... I am almost 30 and have been on one date in my whole life, I have never had a boyfriend (well at least not since jrhigh), I have never been in love.
The reality is this...I have made mistakes, I have not given my all to the Lord over the years, I have searched for love in all the wrong places.
But here is what I know now. A dear friend challenged me once, he said "Rhonda, I know that the Lord has someone for you in His time. But until then, working on being the woman that you desire to be should be your focus."
As women we always talk about the type of husband we want, the leader we want our husband to be, the manly man our heart desires. A lot of times we fail to focus on the things we can work on...becoming the woman that that man deserves...a Proverbs 31 woman.
That is my hearts desire, my hearts desire is to be a woman who is trusted by her husband, a woman who people know she is wise with her time, money and efforts, a woman who her "children" honor and respect.
I will leave the life support machine running on my love life...but until the "doctor" can figure out the cure I will work on becoming the woman that the Lord desires and my husband desires.
I love you, friend! Keep blogging and keep living each day to the full :) As a student of mine always says, "All in good time" :)
ReplyDeleteOh! My dear!
ReplyDeleteI have no doubt God has someone very special for you. We have a say in Spanish “Lo bueno se hace esperar.” Literal translation won’t mean anything but the general idea behind it is that good things take time to happen. Mean while, wait patiently. Your Prince is somewhere in this world also preparing himself to be the best husband he could be.
You were a blessing for my daughter at the Peru trip. Daniela looks up to you and you are a great example of what a young Christian woman should be. Your loving ways will stay with her forever. You touch her life and I’m sure many on this trip fill the same way.
I pray to God to send your Prince soon and that your dreams will materialize. He who wins your heart is so very lucky to have such a beautiful girl.
And after the many goodnights you told my daughter…Tonight it’s my turn to say: “goodnight my little princes.”
Sweet dreams and God blessings!
Love it...and you! :)
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